fire vs. ice

nothing bad has happened..and yet nothing good either.

I guess today's just going to be like the old days..lol..

Days of stupid depression. I hate it...because i don't want to give into it.. I haven't in months. And If I do now..it'll look bad on my part..and I want to appear happy,fine,and okay.. Though..i don't know if I am..

I've ignored my depression..but just like day becomes night..I become depressed. It's unpreventable.

God.. to think for once I could be happy.. Is plain stupid. How could I..? EVER have anything go well.

So stupid. everything is. There's no point of me. Honestly.

I'm a waste of space. I don't help any. I don't have a job, life, or a heart. I have no purpose. I am of no use.

And yet I'm still here.

I don't want to be.

I just want to fall into a eternal sleep..where everything is just black..in the dark.

there's nothing and no one. That seems fitting for me.

I'm played with fire..and I'm burned..and now all i want to do is freeze. ....

I'm cold right now....so why not.