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I have to change my medicine again..which of course is very discouraging.>.<

I gave it a few months and another few weeks...Soo it's time to call this one an epic fail.

My life seems to be just staying still but some how turning too...enough to make a person sick. It's like living hell on earth..

I can't find enjoyment in pain or in happieness. nothing. Everything I normally would do is no longer working for some stupid reason.

I drew pictures. Didn't help.
I wrote about it. Made me more depressed.(lol)
I talked about it. Made me mad. >.<
I sang about it. I wanted to go to sleep and never wake up.
I cut myself. Only made more scars that all look the same.

Nothing worked. Normally one of those things WOULD of helped....but nothing has. It seems I cant find comfert in the one things that hurt....but help. How truly sad.

My friends..are so blind they see nothing at all. I feel as though I wear a huge sign on my forhead saying HELP ME!! and yet none of them see it. I don't see how. It's so obvious. Or at least it feel's like it is...
Maybe they do know..but just don't care or do know but are just sick of dealing with me. I don't know and either way...

I don't blame them.

Blame anyone. who decides I'm not worth anything because to be honest..it's true. Once everyone, my family, friends,blogger people relize that then they'll be better off. They can delete me out of there life. And be okay. And It's okay ....because I would.

I'm not something people care about. I just get used all the time. I'm like a tissue. I can serve a good purpose but soon I'll be waisted up and have to much shit on me ..that all that's left is to throw me away into the trash can.

So...with that said. I understand if some of you will stop following me. I would recomend it.

Trust me..your not missing anything.