I hate this!!!
Its the one stupid thing I'm good at..and I cant fucking do it.
I CANT DRAW LIKE EVERYONE THINKS I CAN. IM NOT A FREAKIN GOD LIKE THEY SEEM TO THINK I AM. AND I CANT DRAW EVER FUCKING THING THEY WANT. T.T
Trying to draw stuff that I know is out of my league is depressing and hurtful.. like a slap to the face,....a fucking reminder that you fucking suck and can only do so much..
I draw to help ease my mind, to make others smile, and to feel accomplished and worthy of something.....
And when I cant do that..it fucking hurts deep. Like a dagger to the back...and you just keep getting stabbed. >.<>.<
So dont ask of me to do it....cause now look...Ive dissapointed my uncle and grandparents and people I dont even fucking know!!!!!!!
And most of all..............
I dissapointed myself.
I really thought maybe I could...and I couldn't and they still ask of me to try again.
I don't want to try again....what is this a sick fucking joke, hope you've failed and we want you to try again to watch you fail FOR A FUCKING THIRD TIME.
O.O
SO MUCH FOR THIRDS A FUCKING CHARM.
T.T
I feel so depressed...I'm so mad I'm freakin crying!! GAH!!! X[
I hate this...
