Teardrops on my guitar

"Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see"

So this song is now my song. In every damn way. >.<

All the highlighted stuff is stuff that I feel or do or happens. This song describes it all..thats why almost everything is fucking highlighted red..lol...

Teardrops on my guitar

Drew Looks at me

I fake a smile so he wont see

What I want and I need

And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful

That girl he talks about

And she's got everything

That I have to live without

Drew talks to me

I laugh cause its just so funny

I cant even see

Anyone when he's with me

He say's he's so in love

He's finally got it right

I wonder if he knows

He's all think about at night

He's the reason for the teardops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Dont know why I do

Drew walks by me

Can he tell that I cant breath?

And there he goes, so perfuctly

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight

Give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes

And know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing thats got me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing

Dont know why I do

So I drive home alone

As I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down

And maybe get some sleep tonight

Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep playing

Normal day..or at least as normal is it gets

Today is a good day.

(so far..Each time it turns out good it always ends bad some way..so I dont want to curse it) Lol.

If any of you ever get really bored theres this amazing site I have thats really fun and entertaining..lol.

Its called www.gamesthatgive.net you should play bubble buster. Its my top favorite. And the star game. I think they call it staries. Lol.

Anyway,

I actually told my best friend everything...Like alot has happened to me these last few weeks and I havent been able to tell anyone. But yesterday I did. She's my best friend ever man. I didnt ever think we'd be this close or still even talking but we do.

I went to church with her last night. It was good until the end....Thats when of course he showed up....>.<

(I TOLD YOU. ITS ALWAYS THE END. AHHHH) Lol

Its like he's EVERYWHERE.

In my thoughts, at school, with my friends, fuck even my DREAMS. >.<

XD

It's like I cant exscape anywhere...its really unfair if you ask me....


I'll blog soon about exactly what happened..but I'm not ready yet...it still hurts..still hurting..

Bi-polar

You ever just have one of those days where you wonder why the fuck you even woke up...

why you take each breath in....

*my hand is raised up HIGH* lol.

I was getting better..with the whole depression and all...but just about a week or two ago it got bad again....like as bad if not worse than it was before...

Man I really dont want to go to school...like i know thats random but it just poped in my head.

My stomach is hurting...its "that time" and I have the munches lately..lol

wow.....I am so fucking bi-polar....

*takes gun and shots*

>.<

Alright..I'm going to bed...lol. Night

Suffering

It hurts so bad...

This feeling makes my heart fall inside out..

All I can do is cry and wallow in my own damn self pity, it's so fucking pathetic.

It hurts so bad.. its kills..and they have no clue.

No clue how much I fucking care...how much I truly am there....

I wish I wasn't. I wish I would just say fuck it. Like everyone else has...but I cant and I wont because I'm fucking STUPID.

I just want to save them and help them..let them feel no pain...but either way..I'll always be in pain...its like I CANT WIN!!!!!!!

It would be so much freakin easier if I was all alone away from everyone and everything..then no one could hurt me and I as well could hurt no one......

gah.....I just want to cry...

.....T.T.......this is pure suffering..

BACK

It's been such a long time. Im sorry about that too. But Im back soo it's all good.

I really have been meaning to get on but after i got home and started the recovery stage everything changed. Like even I changed. It's really werid..

Like the way I feel about relationships have changed and the way I feel about kids and love..>.<

Well anyway..this is just letting you all know I'm back. And I'm going to start "Real" blogs after this one..this one is just a I'm alive type of blog. lol. =D

Love ya all thanks for everything and again I'm sorry for being gone for so damn long.